Have you ever come to a point in your life where you feel
distant from God? Like no matter how much you read the bible, pray or sing
songs of praise, he’s just not there. Like no matter what you do you just don’t
feel the Holy Spirit anymore? Such seasons are just exhausting and they drain
your energy to the max. I have been there. I felt like I was stuck between a
rock and a hard place. I sometimes felt like I do not deserve God’s love, no
matter how much I tried pursuing him, I felt like he just didn’t want me
anymore. But you know what, God’s love isn’t restricted when we think we did
well, he loves us regardless.
I kept beating myself up until I realised that it’s okay not
to be okay. It’s okay to be overwhelmed. I honestly felt like I’m not doing
enough to please God. Or maybe God was just not interested in me anymore.
Sometimes one may look like they have it all together in the outside, but deep
down you just falling apart. And you know what? That’s okay too; because you
don’t have to have it all figured out all the time. But just don’t unpack and
stay there.
The way I was feeling was summed up in Psalm 13: 1-2 “How
long, O LORD? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from
me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and everyday have sorrow in my
heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Feeling distant from God doesn’t mean we should stop seeking
him, even when we feel like he is nowhere to be found. There’s one song I love
about seeking God’s face by Bethel music, it’s called “ONE THIRST”. Psalm 27:8
My heart says of you, “seek his face!” Your face, Lord, I will seek.
It is in that feeling of feeling distant from God that you
must hold on to him; pray even when you feel like your prayers are bouncing
back. The devil likes to use such situations against us. Seek God’s face even
when you feel like he can’t be found. 1Peter 4: 8-9 Be self-controlled and
alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for
someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know
that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of
suffering.
Take note of “your brothers throughout the world are
undergoing the same kind of struggle”. You are not the only one feeling like God
is distant from you. You are told to stand firm in faith, because that’s the
only thing that will help you through this difficult time.
1Chronicles 16:11 Look to the Lord and his strength, seek
his face always. This means that we should seek his face in all seasons. Seek
his face even when you don’t feel like seeking his face. Seek his face even
when you feel like he can’t be found. Seek his face even when you feel like you
don’t deserve his love. Seek his face always.
In Proverbs 8:17 God says he loves those who love him and
those who seek him will find him. This means that we should’nt grow weary in
seeking God because we know that whenever we seek him we will find him. God is
always there when you need him. Even when you feel like he is far away, he is right
by your side and he will never leave or forsake you.
Jeremiah 29:13-14 You will seek me and find me when you seek
me with all your heart. I will be found by you, “declares the Lord, “ and I
will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and
places where I have banished you”, declares the Lord, and I will bring you back
to the place from which I carried you into exile.
Psalm 27:4 One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek,
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon
the beauty of the Lord and seek him in his temple.
From me Divhani
